Having a bad day

Having a bad day

Words do not begin to describe the loss in one's life when you lose a child. It is a never-ending battle to stay afloat. Buoyed by love but tossed in huge waves of grief. Sometimes you don't feel the pain and then there are days you wake up and it is all you can feel.

I do not have as many bad days as I used to.  Today is the exception.

I try to be the me, the me I was before you died...

I try to be the me, the me I was before you died...

I have wished this so many times....

I have wished this so many times....

Newly discovered videos of Will

Newly discovered videos of Will

I found an old cd with a few videos of Will. WOW.  Talk about a wave of uncertainty. Knowing that if I watch them I will cry. I am tired of crying.  I also know that there are a great memories contained in those videos that weren't lost when Will passed away.  

One of the videos was titles "Will Naked"! How could I resist watching?

OMG I love that kid.  We had just moved from Fort Lauderdale, Fl to Kennesaw, GA so it had to be late Sept 2001.  Will was fresh from the bath and just wanted to run around the apartment naked.

More videos to come.

WILLpower!

Moving forward is a challenge

Moving forward is a challenge

Grief is hard work

Grief is hard work

Keeping busy

Keeping busy

This is so so so very true.

Grieving is like having broken ribs

Grieving is like having broken ribs

This is a great way to describe the feeling.