The weather bring back memories

The weather bring back memories

As the weather has gotten warmer this afternoon my thoughts turned to memories of Will running around and enjoying the first few warm days of the year.  Even though is would February and just slightly warmer than the norm, he would beg to wear his basketball shorts and white t-shirt before going outside to play.

Not a day goes by

Not a day goes by


Not a day goes by that I don't wish for one more hug.   

A strawberry yoohoo and a butter biscuit

A strawberry Yoo-Hoo and a butter biscuit

There are places that I just flat out avoid going to because of the memories attached to them.  The local gas station, Grands, has been one of those places.   I have only been in the store a couple times since Will passed away.   

Grands is not just a gas station, it is also one of the very few places in the area that serves breakfast.  Will loved this place.  He and his Mom would stop there frequently before school and I would take him there on weekends.  It was always the same routine.  Will would count out just enough money to buy a strawberry Yoo-hoo and a butter biscuit.   This was a "Will thing" because he did not want his Mom or to go in the store with him if we didn't have to.  We would watch him from the car and he would be in there acting cool and always beaming from ear to ear.   When he would get back in the car he would chow down.  

I miss those days.

Positive Emotions

Positive Emotions

- from PBS.org's grief blog

Shifting mourners’ focus from negative emotions to positive ones provides a psychological break or respite, and also allows them to replenish their resources.

Positive emotions can improve the way people cope with their loss. As a result of gaining some distance from negative emotions and being restored and replenished by positive emotions, mourners are more able to focus their attention on the tasks that are most important to them and make progress on these tasks.

It is more difficult to experience positive emotions following some kinds of loss than others. For example, those whose loved one dies unexpectedly are likely to show lower levels of positive emotion than those whose loved one’s death was expected.

Positive Emotion Map Instructions
http://positivepsychologynews.com/search-by/image-maps/map-instructions

His Smile

His Smile

Will did not have perfect teeth but his smile was perfect in every way.   I miss his smile so much.  That smile was like medicine for my soul.  It still is.