My heart is filled with Love
Wednesday, October 30, 2013
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
Will won!
Will won!
I will never forget the excitement in Will's voice when he told me about winning the costume contest at Jump for Joeys. The prize was a Jump for Joeys annual pass, one of his favorite places on the planet! He had entered lots of costume contests in his life but this was the first time that he won first prize and was beaming. It was such a thrill to see him get that excited.
Will wore his annual pass out! He must have gone twice a week on average and would have gone more often if he could have arranged it.
It turned out to be the last costume contest he ever entered. I am so blessed to have such great memories.
Friday, October 4, 2013
Tuesday, September 24, 2013
Monday, September 23, 2013
The Grievers Prayer
The Grievers Prayer
Two steps forward, three steps back; Three steps forward, two steps back;
Some times it feels like I am always starting over. Again.
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
Wearing a mask
Wearing a mask
One of the easiest coping mechanisms for me after Will's death was to slip on my "I'm OK" mask. It was much easier to act happy than it was to constantly feel sad. In time even I began to believe I was ok. It felt like the right thing to do.
How wrong I was.
I was not, and am not, OK.
It has taken a long time to admit that to myself.
I let myself cry now without scolding myself. It never feels good to cry but I realize now that felt even worse to let it build and pretend it wasn't there.
Friday, July 26, 2013
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