Friday, June 15, 2012

The Return of the Blog - Part 1


The Return of the Blog - Part 1

It is has been months since anything new has been posted to my blog.   I have sat down several times to write something but it always sounded too negative to post.  Life has been tough lately and I have not found much that I have wanted to share publicly.   The trials and tribulations of life have brought me to a point that I never thought I would have to face. 

With every memory is a smile.
With every smile is a tear.
With every tear is a wish.
With every wish is a prayer.

Never give up.
Never give in.
Never forget.

Those words came to me after looking at some photos of Will and shedding a few tears. 

I miss Will more than ever.  


Friday, April 6, 2012

Happy Easter


Happy Easter


Holidays are still tough.  


I have some great memories of Easter with Will.


Here is a series of photos from Easter 2004.  We spent Easter with my parents and Will had a blast.




























Happy Easter!!







Monday, April 2, 2012

Easter Week


One of Will's favorite holidays was Easter.  To him, this was the time in the bible when Jesus proved that he was truly a super hero and rose from the dead.  Please take time to walk your family through the story of Easter in the Bible and celebrate the entire week!


excerpts from theholidayspot.com


Easter Week


The Holy Monday & Tuesday: 

Monday of the Holy Week is not a major feast. The cleansing of the temple in the Holy City of Jerusalem is thought to have taken place on this Monday. This was when Jesus overturned the tables of the moneychangers, saying to them: " It is written, 'My house shall be called a house of prayer'; But you make it a den of robbers". [Matthew: 21:13]

The Tuesday of the Holy Week is the day when the famous incident between Jesus and Pharisees is thought to have taken place. This was when the churchmen tried to trap Jesus into making a blasphemous, or, anti-god remark.

This day is important also on another count. Jesus discoursed to his disciples on the Mount of Olives about the destruction of Jerusalem and the signs of the last day.

Spy Wednesday:

On the Wednesday the tempo of the Holy Week increases. This is the day widely known as "Spy Wednesday". For it is the day when Judas Iscariot, a disciple turned betrayer agreed to show the chief priests where they could easily capture Jesus.

Maundy Thursday: 

The Thursday of the Holy Week is associated with the Last Supper. The day is known as Maundy Thursday, or, Holy Thursday. It is the day before crucifixion. On this day Jesus had his supper, his last course, with his disciples. In the words of St Matthew:

...Jesus took bread, and blessed, and broke it , and gave it to the disciples and said, "Take, eat; this is my body." And he took a cup, and when he had given thanks he gave it to them, saying," Drink of it, all of you; for this is my blood of covenant, which is poured out for many for the forgiveness of sins."

Good Friday:

The Friday of the week is the Good Friday. This is the day on which Jesus was crucified outside the walls of Jerusalem, at the top of the Calvary hill. And the Christian belief says that Jesus sacrificed himself for the men's sins, to be died crucified.

This day is marked by solemn observations in memory of Jesus' crucifixion.For, Christians believe that by dying Jesus accomplished a reconciliation between God and man. And accordingly the crucified image of Jesus or, the Cross itself, came to be regarded as the main symbol of faith for the Christians.

Roman Catholics observe the day usually through fast and abstinence to commemorate the pains and sufferings Jesus underwent on the cross. It is since the 4th century that Good Friday came to be observed as a separate occasion. Before this, an annual celebration was held as Christian Passover, or, Pascha, to mark both Christ's death on Cross and the Resurrection.

Easter Eve:

The day following Good Friday is the Holy Saturday. This is usually called Easter Eve in Anglican churches, and is held as a traditional time for baptism services.

Presently, this day is primarily a Roman Catholic, Eastern Orthodox, as well as Anglican observance. Roman Catholic churches observe this with the blessing and lighting of a tall Paschal candle. The candle is placed on the altar on the Holy Saturday. While blessing, five grains of incense are fixed in it, representing the five wounds of Jesus and the burial spices with which his body was anointed. The candle is lit and remains on the Gospel side of the altar until Ascension Day. This day comes at the end of forty days which mark the period through which Christ showed up himself of and on following the crucifixion. On Ascension Day Christ is believed to have ascended to the heaven.

Easter: 

Easter Sunday is the day of the feast. This day, the third since crucifixion, is the day Christ is believed to have shown himself. And not just that, Jesus also joined his disciples for a meal! Easter comes at the end of the six days of the Holy Week which came to be associated with the life of Jesus before the Resurrection. He had risen up from his tomb that was guarded by the sentries. And met his disciples to get them prepared to carry out his works in his absence.


Thursday, March 29, 2012

Glad to be closing the book on March soon


Glad to be closing the book on March soon

March has been a very difficult month.   The emotions brought on by Will's Birthday on March 1st are never easy to deal with.   For whatever reason, this year was even harder than last.  

One of the most difficult decisions I have had to make since Will died was finding another home for his beloved dog, Cassidy.   I love that dog and have SO many memories of she and Will together but she deserved more than I could provide for her.   Boxers need to have space to run and non-stop attention.   Luckily she now has a huge fenced in backyard, another large dog to run with and kids to shower her with attention.   

It was like giving up another piece of what was left of my prior life. 

I know it was for the best but it was still not an easy decision.

Life goes on.

It sure is quit around my house now.

Sunday, March 4, 2012

I miss you!


I miss you!

The week of his birthday has been filled with so many emotions.   I have kept myself so busy that some of my grief catches up to me when I least expect it.   

I miss hearing his voice. My life feels so empty without the sound of his voice sometimes. 

I miss you Will.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Will's "Wrestling Birthday"


Will's "Wrestling Birthday"


I decorated Will's grave in a way he would have appreciated.  There are three wrestling matches going on graveside.





Triple H has thrown Trevor Murdoch through a table to win the Tables Match!



Jeff Hardy and Edge are in the middle of Ladder Match!


Hulk Hogan has destroyed Santino Morella!


Happy Birthday Will!


Happy Birthday Will!

Today would have been Will's 11th birthday.   My heart is heavy.   I feel like I have lost touch with the world in the past week.   Nothing has felt good or even taste good.  I miss my son so much that I struggle to think of anything else.  

I feel like I celebrate his life every day in everything I do.

Today is not a celebration.

I love you Will!